Aww poor your, Lesley, do'nt feel like a traitor, you can never wash the lovely memories of him away, they are already stored in your heart to draw on any time you need, I must admit i've always kept a memento of my dogs, usually their collars, of which |I have a few now, bearing in mind I've fostered a lot of dogs that were hospice dogs. it's just a little something, but it's practical, and could be used again if needed, although I never have yet! I feel for you.xx